friday night...

the more i seek you,
the more i find you,
the more i find you,
the more i love you.
i want to sit at your feet,
drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against and breath,
feel your heartbeat,
this love is so deep,
its more then i can stand,
i melt in your peace
its overwhelming.
-kari jobe

This friday night, as I sit on the couch, I'm a bit overwhelmed, not in a stressed out way, but more in a 'I need Jesus' in a desperate way. The God of the UNIVERSE wants and desires a relationship with me. How do I accept that? I'm so guilty in everyway. I deserve death, but for some reason the Lord continues to give me my every breath. I do not deserve my life, but since the Lord continues to give it to me, I want to give it back to Him.
I need a healing. I need a new. I need a fresh. I need Him. I don't want to be sad. Fill me with YOUR joy Lord!! I know you are good, I know you are faithful, I know you are there, even when I am sad and overwhelmed and can't see. I know and believe before I see. I think that is what faith is. Give me faith Father!